Do you, do you?
All I know is that God is in Control - of everything. Ultimately.
So dunch fret.
Do you believe in returning an eye for an eye? I don't. At least, I do hope my actions will be louder than my words. Human Beans can't help it that, at times, we want to be in control of stuffz. Esp when things go wrong or bad. Like if somebody wrongs you, your first reaction is that you wanna pay him/her back. Maybe hit them back harder.
I realised that all this pay-you-back deal does us human beans no good. No good at all. It only goes in a loop. A Cycle. You hurt me, i hurt you back, then you hurt me back again. then Everybody get hurts. Deadlock.
But! if i pay love in return for any wrongs done, I benefit & the other party benefits. instead of striving in anger, discouragement & hurt, we strive in love. It somehow feel better too. e Best part is that we grow closer and not further apart. HAH! & the schemes of the evil ones fail! The more i think about it, the more i like the idea!
Anyhow, I'll be going away to NihOn. Yes, again. I'm not sure if I'm seriously excited about this trip or not. However, I do hope that going away will give me rest and perhap mend some holes. in God we trust. I trust.